week 82- Landslide

morning weight 140 ( Gulp)


Yeah so my holiday indulging and separation " who gives a fuck" attitude have caught up with me....I can account for all those lbs from poor food choices and inactivity. I am back on track now... but I would be lying if I did not admit that I am upset with myself.


I can't kick myself when I am down.. all I can do it pick myself up, dust myself off and get to work. My depression has defiantly had an affect on my will power and motivation. I went to get a hair cut the other day as a pick me up and ended up hating it because it's too short... let me rephrase that.. I don't hate the cut... I just wish it was longer. In 8 weeks it will be just fine.


Going through a separation is hard... but I need to take care of myself... I must. I just feel like I have not had the energy.

so I am attempting to get myself back on track.

week 81

weight 138


trying to get back on track and find my blogging & fitness mojo. I feel like I have been off focus since November. I worked out today ( yeah) and planning for wens and Friday too. I am basically still doing my thing... working out 2-3 days per week... but doing the bare minimum really. I just have lost a little drive & ambition. I think its minor depression and initially just being so exhausted from the move. My life & routine has changed.. I am now essentially a single parent and have more to juggle... but no excuses.. I got this.. I am not giving up or giving it... it is totally normal for ambition and motivation to wax and wane.

2014 is my year and I will be back with a vengeance. Stay tuned

week 80

weight 136

found my fitbit... so happy... was fixing to buy another on ebay

so I am doing pretty good with my workouts..  basically getting some workouts in 3 days a week... more at the Y these days than at home but that is ok,  I fell off the wagon tracking my food on my fitness pal since the move and I really need to get back into that habit.

I also feel like I am emotional eating more than usual... which is understandable given my circumstances but still not something I want to make a habit of. I simply recognize it and keep myself  busy in other ways.

how are you all doing on your fitness goals?

week 79

weight 136


worked out three days at the Y last week.... it's good because it is getting me and Liv out of the house. They have some cool equipment and this new sideways elliptical machine which seems to mimic ice skating and I really felt it.Today I was planning on going but am struggling with a sinus headache... I took a Claritin D which made me feel so sleepy... I know those things are supposed to be non drowsy... but I swear they affect me. I napped for an hour.

The day is still young... I may still head to the Y. I have been a tad cranky lately... and snapping at Liv. We are kinda on top of each other here at the Condo and just with her boredom on thanksgiving break.... we were just in each others hair. I am thankful John came to get her this morning to keep her for the night.... we both needed that break.

I may just take a mental health day and take a nice long bath and enjoy the quiet condo. I was able to meet up with a friend for lunch today for a much needed bitch & vent session.

week 78

still catching my breath from moving and not 100% done yet... uggh... hard part is my car is very small and does not hold a ton. I already have my trunk full of Christmas gifts that I don't want Liv to find... so I am just working with the small backseat and front seat. I used the movers for the big stuff only. So I made my 20th trip again yesterday. I just don't have room for everything so It's a lot of sorting and deciding what is essential to me. I need to borrow Johns mini van to get one big load and just be done.  I am almost there.... as far as here at the condo I am feeling pretty settled and moved in/unpacked. There is a Entertainment armoire still at the house that I really want to bring.... but I need to disassemble it and transport it or see if I can get some help moving it.  I can't afford the movers a third time.

I purchased a tiny Christmas tree... 2 footer that I can easily store. It's not going to be the massive tree Liv is used to decorating but it is the spirit of Christmas that counts. I joined the Y and worked out 3 days last week. I have been really slacking on My fitness pal charting my intake... but I am planning on getting back to business soon. Overall I am making good choices.  Prolly partaking in too many sweets... but nothing to crazy.I think the movers broke my treadmill.... it works it is just making a weird rubbing sound.... I feel very grateful that I have got such great mileage out of it... my $50 moving sale find.  I hope it lasts me longer.

week 77

weight 135

I have to rehire the movers... ran out of time on Saturday and had to get the essentials moved first... ya know.. beds & washer & dryer and such.. but man I am missing my equipment. I re-hired the movers and Monday they will be bringing my treadmill and hopefully elliptical... and a few other things for the patio. It's going to be a tight squeeze in my bedroom... but I really want to make it work... so it will.


I have been really busy as you can imagine,,,, and pretty active walking up and down steps.
I am feeling better... I broke every nail moving and my whole body ached. I think I did 56 flights of stairs on moving day... lol.. I am starting to feel back to normal. I rearranged the living room last night and aggravated my back. So I am resting on the heating pad now.

Looking forward to getting back to my workouts.

WEEK 75- hiatus

weight 135 at home scale .......142 work scale

This is the first week since I began this way of Living 75 weeks ago,that I am off my game... I have good reason.. I am going through some major life changes. Yesterday was a work out day, I had a flu shot and just felt yucky. So I only worked out Saturday and Tuesday this week.

I am giving myself some wiggle room for awhile because I am moving in 2 weeks and have lots to do.... I anticipate being very active and busy for awhile.

I will be back soon to update and will still be doing my best to maintain.

week 74

weight 136


maintaining over here in the midst of some tough times


ate better this week, did my workouts...


I know all will be well....

week 73- meh

weight 137

Week of ups and downs over here.... ate like crap some of the time......going through issues in my life and have a lot on my mind.  On Friday I had my belvita biscuits & coffee at 6.30 am, forgot to pack a healthy snack and ended up so hungry that I went through drive through and got fast food at 12.30... starving and needing something immediately.  I try hard not to let myself get that way by packing almonds or having a greek yogurt around 10am.... I did the bare minimum with my workouts this week...... but I still worked out.

started Liv on a new adhd med and every time we do this it is a roller coaster of Mama guilt.


starting with a clean slate today and this week..

I did get to my endocrinologist on Friday to get some labs to see if my thyroid meds should me adjusted..... I took a few hours of personal time to take Liv to her psychiatrist, then I stopped at my doctors to draw blood and then did a home visit and went into the office to finish up my day.

Week 71

weight 137


this week was really emotional.. going through some stuff in my personal life .....so I am stepping back and just breathing..... phew....and permission to just be in my own skin for awhile with no pressure.. I don't have to make a choice right now.. when the time comes I will know.

just wrapped up my first 90 days at my new job.. I feel I can relax a little now.. confident in my role. they offered me full time in January which will really help. The full time comes with more responsibilities. Changing careers is pretty stressful overall. I did just ok with my workouts this week... nothing to fabulous.... lots of walking outside... my heart was not in running at all..... just felt lethargic... but I still did my mon, tue, thurs workout  and today walked over  6 miles.

I ate like crap today.... the zoo offered pizza hut or McDonald's...I should have planned ahead and packed a healthy option. I did pass up ice-cream and ate my trail mix instead. I had a kid sized meal of cheeseburger/small fries and diet coke.. that was my first fast food meal in a long time. Felt like crud afterwards....

week 70

weight 140

Now this scale is pissing me off......really taking a good honest look at my food diary on MFP and will have to re-evaluate things. Prolly too much snacking is the culprit if I am being 100% honest.... been eating candy here & there at work..... I am doing my thing with my workouts and walking on my lunch breaks and with Liv on rest days.. I will clean up my diet and be back in my 135 comfort zone in no time. John thinks it's muscle. I have not brought out the tape measure in awhile... so I will do that and we will see.

I have been sore... from my increase in outdoor runs and my weights tends to creep up when I am healing ( body retains water while repairing muscle)... but it is stretch to account for that much of an increase. Just 2 weeks ago I was 135. I can't let it have power over me or bring me down... but just let it be a reminder to take a look at my diet and hone in on weaknesses.

One positive is that my resting HR is in the " Athlete' category.... that made me smile. That is a Non scale victory and something to be proud of.


Sat- run/walk

sun- rest day

mon- run/walk

tue- run/walk

wens- rest day

thurs- elliptical

fri- rest day

sat- Today. Going to do some weights and run in or out if the rain stops.

week 69

weight 139


Hello Yo-yo scale... again... whatev's... I know I am doing alright. I was 142 at the doc scale.


I worked out tue, thurs, and Sat this week.

really motivated by my HR monitor.... wish I could find one device to do it all.. my fitbit monitors cals burned, distance, steps, stairs, and sleep.. however it does not do HR. My HR monitor does HR, cals burned and duration but not distance or pace/speed... oh well.. between the too I get most of what I need.

week 68

weight 135



Finally a break from my 137 streak....... I seriously felt like I was at 137 for 3 months straight. I knew something had to give eventually. I know that when I am sore that the body is retaining water to repair itself. I knew I was making good choices and working out.


This week I have been really sore... a good sore. I am in this in between stage with my strength training and one set of weights is to light but another is to heavy...I started adding 2 lb wrist weights to make up the difference and it has been working....I can feel it. The biggest challenge is finding ways to continue confusing and challenging my muscles.


I am getting ready to hop on the elliptical and get my workout out of the way... tonight is meet the teacher night ( yeah)

week 67- TMI

weight 138


perplexed by the scale... but whatevs....not letting that bother me because I know I have done the work and made healthy choices. Been super healthy this week. I am going to my endocrinologist in Oct and having labs done and asking for an increase in my thyroid meds..over the years my dosage goes up & down and this is when of those times I need it to go up.. I can just feel it.



Todays run was the complete opposite of Mondays run.. I was not feeling the running outside today.. my thighs were screaming at me... still sore from Mondays run. Dealing with a girly issue that made running uncomfortable. I resorted to walking for 15 min and then I came inside and managed to run on the treadmill for 15 minutes and then hit the weights for upper body and did some prone jackknifes. Better than nothing for sure.

I have been cranky as heck... trying unsuccessfully to battle a yeast infection for a good month with probiotics.
I was on z-pac last month and that got my system out of wack. sorry TMI I know... it was like it was manageable and than suddenly I felt that If I did not get some relief I would go postal. I finally called and asked for a script for diflucan. Can't wait to feel better.


to top off my week I discovered Liv had lice... ugghh..I think she picked it up the daycare she was at briefly before school started. There was a two week gap between summer camp ending and school starting. She was scratching her head on Saturday and I checked her but found nothing. I chalked it up to chlorine or not rinsing well enough... after continued itching and after a closer look.. I found them.... 15 years as a daycare/headstart teacher has honed my lice detection skills. So Tuesday I did not workout... I spent the evening stripping the beds, bagging up stuffed toys, washing bedding and treating Liv and myself for good measure. I don't have it, however Liv has been sleeping in my bed lately so I just wanted to cover all bases. What an ordeal... it took up the whole night. That was two days ago.. I have been checking her twice daily.... combing her out.. as of now she is nit free thank goodness.. I will keep checking though.. she has a lot of hair and those nits are tiny.


I used a natural non chemical shampoo called Lice guard, tea tree conditioner and a special metal tooth comb... the secret is just comb, comb, comb.. grab a flash light or sunlight is best and divide the head in sections and carefully look for eggs. It takes me an hour to get through Liv's head. This is the second time she has brought it home.. the last was 2 years ago... I am hoping this is the last time.. because it sucks.


Is it Friday yet?

week 66

weight 136

sore this week.... over did my upper body work... plan on resting poolside today

week 65-a good week

I have had protien shakes every morning for the last week..... kinda addicted to them since I discovered so many yummy reciepes. I ran outdoors last week and man does that feel different to my body. It is so much harder.. my butt, inner thighs and shins were so sore...i am still working out monday, tuesdays and thursdays and focusing on being active with Liv on weekends and squeezing in workouts when I can... balance.



Today I took Liv to taste of willoughby and they had so many yummy food choices, proud that I picked the healthiest option.. a chicken rice thai bowl.... let me tell you the pizza and italian food looked so tempting... but I am really trying to drop some lb's.


still doing my thing over here... how are you coming along with your fitness goals?

week 62

weight 136


holding steady.. been at my job a month and found a good routine. Mondays I run 3 miles, tue I do the elliptical & abs and Thursdays I power walk and do upper body weights. Need to up my fresh fruit & veggies.. slacking off a little with my busier schedule and relying on lean cuisines and 100 cal packs.


My moody Mia tortie cat.. age 13 just went missing. We are devastated. It was around 2 pm and I realized I had not seen her in a while. I got this weird panicky feeling like she was really gone. That is not odd for her to be out of sight all day. I checked her usual hiding spots, then we checked the entire house. She is gone. The cats do go out on the deck here & there, in our fenced in yard and sit in the sun. Mia usually runs out and comes back in on her own after nibbling some grass. Never in 13 years has she gone off or had any interest in going anywhere... she is very skittish. Max on the other hand will stay out all day. I sent Liv to bring max in prior to running errands this morning and we closed up the house and left for a few hours. It is possible she was locked out? but I don't recall seeing her at all this morning or yesterday. The last I saw her was friday night. Sat we ran around all day and did not get home until 9.30 pm.

I have a sick feeling she ran off to die... she is so smart and I could see her doing something like that. The not knowing is the hard part. She did not have a collar. so sad

week 61

weight this morning 135 ( doctors scale had me at 142... wtf is the deal with doctors scales???)


So this week I brought my A game to my workouts.... on Monday ( day off) I ran 3 miles in 30 min on the treadmill, my 1st 10 min mile. I felt like a rock-star. My outdoor pace is improving, but I have less stamina and trouble pacing.. I can only go about 1/2 mile spurts. Today I got my workout in early... 30 min on the elliptical and then a brisk walk in the 100 degree heat outside.

I still get frustrated that my body does not look how I would like after 14 months of exercise... it is what it is. I am very proud of my self for my dedication. I have worn my fitbit for a year straight, tracked my daily food intake for 14 months,and been consistent with good choices.

Having tailbone troubles.. hurt it a few years back and it flares up. I got a kabooti cushion and it is helping some... but I just need to take more breaks... I actually started eating my lunch standing up.. lol

Phew- week 60

So I work 4 days a week- My wens & fri office days with my commute turn out to be 10 hour days.. out the door at 7.30am- home at 5.30pm... today is wens and I am spent..... spent... I don't know how I would squeeze a workout in after work.. but no excuses...It would simply require rising earlier in the morning. My T&Th are 8 hour days with my commute and those days are so much easier to manage my workouts. I just do them in the morning or after work. I worked out in the morning the other day for the first time in awhile and I forgot how much satisfaction I get knowing it's over and done and that I have put myself first.I have really been trying to workout outside as much as possible... I have a sore knee from outdoor running... nothing that icing won't help.

*Just realized after I wrote this that I had forgotten to take my thyroid & cortisone meds that morning... both affect my energy... after awhile my 3 pm dose kicked in and I felt better.

week 59

weight 136



all is well. trying to balance it all.. new job, summer, etc.... but so far so good. I am feeling a little overwhelmed at the new job.. so much to learn. Yesterday Liv and I walked 4 miles, so I got my exercise time and Mommy daughter time in at the same time.

Today is a rest day, but on my lunch I walked 10 flights of stairs to get some exercise in. I am going to try to do this everyday.... stairs are a great workout